When I think about my driving question, I feel small. I feel insignifcant. I feel as if I'm standing at the edge of the world, looking at the expanses of the universe and all the stars and planets are merely unanswered questions. And I don't know where to begin.
I've never done official research before starting from complete scratch. This is a new experience. And with new experiences, there is often a feeling of incompetencey. One can "push back" a new idea/concept and have big feelings about the new experience. Almost as soon as I felt comfortable with my driving question for my master's degree, I soon fell into having those before mentioned big feelings.
We are in a pandemic. I am in the middle of fire country. I have family members and friends who have lost their homes. My 97 year old grandmother, who I have seen nearly every day of my life, is now on hospice. I fell today walking from my living room to my office for work, and my knee took the brunt of it. I feel like a hot mess. And my internet is unstable, kicking me out of the one place I can feel normal--teaching.
My big feelings feel HUGE.
My driving question has changed. It's...evolving? It seems suddenly so insignificant amongst the chaos around me. And yet, it isn't. My driving question was originally about equity and how I can provide social-emotional activities to promote equity in my classroom. But...this year is a little different. I am teaching 5th grade part time. And the other half of my time, I am a magnet coach for art and design. So...I'm thinking that my efforts might go into creating a driving question that includes other teachers and may benefit more students than my own.
My current driving question, "Can mentoring (coaching) teachers at a Title 1 school improve student equity?"
I'm sure this is merely a stepping stone in the long journey ahead into the vast universe of questions. But I need to remember to take it one step at a time.
Sarah Magallano teaches 5th grade. She also coaches teachers on integrating art & engineering into their lesson plans.